And Every Color Illuminates

Today’s post is a Blogging 101 “two-fer”: I’ll be playing catchup on the first two assignments for the challenge — a task made rather a lot easier by the fact that I completed these same two assignments back in September.

Taken as a pair, the assignments are basically a gesture of announcing one’s bloggy self to the big wide world, first with a statement of your intended focus/goals for blogging and, next, a revision of your blog name and tagline to bring it into alignment with said focus and goals.

(Tonight’s title, by the way, stems from my inability to roll with the inevitable Destiny’s Child reference and my insistence on looking to different musical inspiration…)

Setting all musical allusion aside, my first step this evening was to look back over my earlier responses to these prompts: my mini-manifesto, and the story of why I’m keeping the blog-name Just Another Lifestyle Change.

And there’s a lot that holds true. Especially the aptness of keeping the blog-name. To quote myself (she says, rather self-indulgently):

Even though I’ve moved on to talk about a wider range of topics than fat acceptance, keeping JALC as my blog-name feels authentic and the appropriate thing to do. For one, I’ve grown ridiculously fond of my little acronym. More substantively, I still see the unconscious patternings around inadequacy, dishonor and not-enoughness as being core to so many of the other cultural patternings I try to unpack and explore. Self-love, in a mature, centered, dignified, joyful way — that’s still the lifestyle change I wish held prominence in the culture.

As true today as when I wrote the words 4 months ago.

But there’s some other elements that feel worth adding to this early-2015 iteration of these themes of who am I and what am I writing for? When I stepped away from the autumn cohort of Blogging 101 at the end of September, I said something about how “I never wanted this to be a navel-gazing blog.”

And that’s still true, in terms of the colloquial associations between that term and a certain flavor of self-indulgent introspection — a flavor of “introspection” that can be egocentric and shallow and not really all that introspective once you get down to brass tacks.

So no, I do not want this to be a navel-gazing blog.

On-a-Lee-ShoreI am, however, feeling a bit more of a pull right now towards bringing both an outward and an inward lens to JALC: the outward lens represented by the sorts of cultural analysis I centered my attention on in September’s manifesto, and the inward lens played out in what I hope will be more authentically (rigorously?) introspective writing about how I bring my ongoing studies to my lived experience and to the dual endeavor of fully loving the love I have and also simultaneously working to design that life forward to be ever-closer in alignment to my heart’s true nature.

Fully embracing what is even as I strive towards something “better,” designing and building my ship even while I’m out on the open sea…..

Something worth writing about.

Which is why, as of tonight’s exploration, my tagline is no longer the 3 F’s I celebrated back in September. Instead, I’m trying on something new:

designing a life in motion

The phrase is an attempt to take that longer-winded metaphor about designing and building my ship and compress it into something evocative. I may continue to tinker with it as the days go by.

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Image credit: Winslow Homer, On a Lee Shore. Unaltered. Public domain.

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3 Responses to And Every Color Illuminates

  1. I like your changes. A few days into blogging 101 in September, I made major name changes, too, and never looked back. I really love the painting you posted, too! Keep up with the 101 course, it will really help you 🙂

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  2. I love your title and look forward to reading more of your posts, whether or not you gaze at your navel, for you write well.

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  3. Alice says:

    Reminds me of the central challenge of DBT: believing both that you are fine just as you are AND that you need to (and want to) change.

    As a long-term, card-carrying member of the Introspectively Bloggy Bloggers Association myself, I look forward to reading where this new direction leads you!

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